God is good
All the time!!
by Wendy Sauers
To borrow the
phrase from a local radio DJ, God is good
All the time!
After 9 months
of bliss following the birth of our son, we realized he was not
doing the things babies typically do at 9 months old. In the midst
of medical testing to determine what was wrong with
our son and at the same time trying to raise our 3 ½ year
old daughter, I was depressed and nearly at the end of my ability
to cope. I would often drive home from work crying, wishing for
some magic that would sweep me away, so I wouldnt have to
The test results
were always normal. For this we were very thankful. EEG, MRI of
the brain, EMG, long chain fatty acids, Fragile X, Pradder-Willie,
a muscle biopsy, and other tests were performed. So began our lifes
journey with a special needs child. He was a good baby and we did
not yet understand what our future would hold. But very soon physical
therapy started, then occupational therapy and later speech therapy
and a special tutor. As the days wore on into months without a diagnosis
the anxiety continued to grow. Juggling all the therapies, medical
tests, and examinations, 2nd and 3rd opinions, genetic counseling,
a 4 yr old and a full time job it all was quickly becoming overwhelming.
In the middle of all my stress (I didnt yet know
the community of people whos shoes I walked in) our church
offered a bible study. An in-depth 2 year study called the Bethel
I already thought I loved God and trusted Him, this was the first
step God urged me to take toward healing my broken heart. As I read
and studied scriptures I began to pray more frequently and felt
the stress in my life ease slightly. I also enrolled in a parenting
class to help me deal with my daughter who always wondered when
her brother would be able to play with her. I truly believe God
led me to both of these classes to begin to reveal himself to me.
Even though I had a very supportive husband and extended family
I felt alone in my journey. Only God could reach me, and He did
in a very big way after about a year of the Bethel class. As I drove
home from work one day, crying in my depression, God spoke audibly
to me, literally causing me to look in the back seat to see who
spoke. That was my first reaction. The second reaction came instantly,
filling me with a peace that surpasses all understanding.
I knew it was God himself who told me It will be OK.
That was all He said and that was all I needed. I felt Gods
presence and all consuming love so strongly. I began to cry again
but this time they were tears of joy. In that instant I gave up
most (probably not all) of my stress and trouble to God and trusted
in Him. My feelings of depression soon turned to joy as I began
to seek Him and praise Him. All the beautiful blessings that surrounded
me everywhere became clear to me.
The time leading
up to hearing the Lords voice I like to think God was carrying
me like the familiar poem Footprints in the Sand states.
Sometime after God spoke to me, He put me down on my own two feet
to walk with Him. And Ive walked with Him ever since. Its
been 10 or 11 years since that pivotal day in my life. And although
the journey is not always easy and depression sometimes slips in,
I know to take all my cares to God and lay them at His feet. He
is always faithful. Always! It is my faith that waxes and wanes,
though unintentionally. And it wanes usually because I choose to
spend time with others, or other things, instead of
with Him. But God is always there to pick me up again and carry
me for a while before setting me back down. This is my faith walk.
And I know it will continue all my life. I feel incredibly blessed
to truly know the power of Gods love. And also to have been
given two children that have fostered my relationship with the Lord.
I thank God every day for both my children (and my husband of course).
It was a couple
of years later that our son was diagnosed with moderate to severe
mental retardation. Since then we have met many marvelous people
who walk our same path in life with a special needs child. I am
also so very thankful to have been shown all the very small miracles
and blessings this world has to offer if only we take time to notice.
The simple tasks that children learn are so very beautiful. Sipping
from a straw, clapping their hands, swinging on a swing
son has made it possible for me to thank God for all of these things
that I otherwise would have taken for granted. God IS truly good
ALL the time!!!! He will carry you through each and every trial
you face in life.
in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice. Let your gentleness
be known to everyone. The Lord is near. Do not worry about anything,
but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let
your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which
surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds
in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:4-7
since we are justified by faith, we have peace with God through
our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have obtained access to this
grace in which we stand; and we boast in our hope of sharing the
glory of God. And not only that, but we also boast in our sufferings,
knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces
character, and character produces hope, and hope does not disappoint
us, because Gods love has been poured into our hearts through
the Holy Spirit that has been given to us. Romans 5:1-5
So I tell
you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received
it, and it will be yours. Mark 11:24
your anxiety on him, because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7
in the Sand
One night I
dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there was one only.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of
when I was suffering from anguish,
sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints,
so I said to the Lord,
You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there has only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?
The Lord replied,
The years when you have seen only one set of footprints,
my child, is when I carried you.- Mary Stevenson © 1984
The child, yet
unborn, spoke with the Father,
how will I survive in the world?
not be like other children. My
be slower, my speech hard
I may look different.
to become of me?
replied to the child,
precious one, have no fear. I will
exceptional parents. They
you because you are special,
spite of it. Though your path
life will be difficult, your
will be greater. You have been
with a special ability to love,
whose lives you touch will
because you are special.
Lord you are an ever faithful God, full of love and grace for your
children. We offer you thanks for every blessing we receive, blessings
big and small. And we give you thanks for our tribulations that
we might grow in faith and service to you. Amen