The last two
issues of Butterfly Blessings were very difficult for me to sit
down and write. It seems without Bennett in my life, I really do
not have much motivation to write, and I do not really seem to have
a lot to write about. The way that God is working in my life now
is much different from the way God worked in my life before Bennetts
There was urgency
before as we climbed up and over peak after peak of challenge. Up
on the top of a mountain there are few trees to block the light.
After you break through the clouds, the light of the sun is always
there to guide you on the mountaintop. The same goes with a challenge.
God is always there to guide you through the toughest challenges,
the highest mountains, that we face in life. And Gods presence
is nothing short of amazing in those difficult times. There really
are not words to adequately explain it.
But now I feel
as if I am rambling away long days and long nights on a windy trail
through a dark and mystery filled gorge. The light still dapples
through the trees in small bursts as I meander along this trail.
I feel as though each one of those bursts of light needs to be acknowledged
in some way. By recognizing the tiny amounts of light in what seems
to be a very dark place and time, I will never lose my way back
to the light again. And perhaps if I share my tiny rays of light
with others, they will see their own, and the world will become
filled with light. And that is really the purpose of Butterfly Blessings.
Each time before
I sit down to write, I pray. God give me the words that you want
me to write. Last week, I sat down with one idea of what to write,
but before I had finished writing, the entire subject had changed
into something I did not even begin to think about writing. And
so it was with many of the Everyday Blessings that I wrote last
year. The words I was writing were God-inspired on many different
writing this weeks Butterfly Blessing because I was having
such difficulty finding something worth writing about. I wanted
to sit by the fire this morning before writing and reflect on some
of the things that have happened this week (the burst of light if
you will). An inner voice told me to just sit down and write. An
inner dialog developed in my head But God, I want to sit here
a bit and recollect the ways that you have shone through in my life.
I want the comfort of your presence. I could imagine God replying,
Your making excuses to put off the calling. Just sit down
and write. So here I am writing.
Last week, I
was very uncertain of whether writing the Butterfly Blessings was
a good idea. I do not take credit for the idea. The Everyday Blessings
idea actually came from a friend who was hospitalized for months.
Her way of facing each day was to find something to be grateful
for each and everyday. For her, the blessings could be as simple
as the orange jello she got with her dinner or as extraordinary
as seeing a rainbow outside her hospital room window several days
in a row.
The idea for
the metamorphosis of Everyday Blessings into Butterfly Blessings
came to me in a flash; I believe a divine inspiration. But I am
nowhere close to perfect, and learning to trust God in all things
will certainly be a life-long lesson in my journey. Immediately,
I questioned the value of this calling. Would I have something to
write about every week? Would I have the time? Would anyone read
them? So last week, I told God to show me that writing Butterfly
Blessings would serve a greater good. I told God that if at least
two people were helped in some way by reading the last weeks
Butterfly Blessing, I would not question this calling any more.
Last week, exactly two people wrote back to me and told me that
the Butterfly Blessing helped them in some way. When the first person
wrote, it was like a tiny ray of light finding a small corridor
through a dense canopy of trees in the forest. When the second person
wrote, I felt as though I reached a clearing in the forest. This
calling brings me closer to the light and love of God.
So, here I am
writing this weeks issue, and I will continue without questioning
from now on until my calling changes. Some weeks, the subject may
not really seem to amount to much to you or me. But it may make
a difference in the life of someone else. Perhaps, God is calling
you to do something with your life to, and I hope that you will
trust the voice that is beyond rational thought and reason. Through
your calling you will find and get closer to the light and love
the greatest blessing of all. There are countless ways
that God uses people for the service of Love, and I believe this
life becomes fulfilling when we find our calling. For me, at this
moment, it is simply
just sit down and write.
light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and
glorify your Father which is in heaven. Matthew 5:16
calling is great when greatly pursued. - Oliver Wendell Holmes
Great and gracious
God, let us hold true to the calling you give each of us. Through
our calling, let our light shine brightly for all announcing your
glory. Continue to guide us and teach us in the service of love.